Jiva to Atma

Spirituality needs discipline. This is a known fact. And over the course of this last year, I have seen just how much I lack in it. A resolve once made, has always evaporated into thin air, at the very next opportunity that it was challenged. So much so, that I have stopped taking myself seriously. And this lack of gumption to see something through is slowly eroding whatever is good and latently good within me. And I really need to get a grip on myself, and come back to the path that I long to be on.

The first of the many challenges, has to do with diet. I need to lost at least 20 lbs and soon. I am 31 now and getting into middle age. And I want to get back in shape before lower metabolism levels take over and make it tougher than it is. I have resolved many times to myself on some of the changes I wanted to make. Simple, basic things for a diet overhaul…like, no coffee and tea, more water, less dairy, only the occasional dessert, and 1 hour of exercise at least 5 days a week.

And everyday, I have failed. And I am tired of failing. And I realise the only way to get what you want, is to go after it, mindfully while asking for grace along the way. Plus, I need to firmly commit myself to change. And that is what I am doing here, right now. So starting tomorrow, for the next 1 week (yes 1 week alone)….I want to institute these changes with determination and strength. And I want to see how this one week impacts me. If at the end of it, I feel good about the changes, then perhaps, I will have the energy of positive impact to carry me into the next week, and the next and the next. For now, it starts with tomorrow.

God grant me the strength and bless this resolve of mine.