The power of Penance January 4, 2008
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Every action in our life leaves certain impressions on us. Action, not just in terms of actual doing, but action within thoughts as well. These impressions are called sanskaras. We have accumulated sanskaras through all the lives we have taken so far, and they determine how we will act now. And the way we act now will give rise to fresh impressions/sanskaras. As long as we are clouded by these impression, we can never be completely free, and hence completely happy.
This is the gist of some passages in the Discourses. And so, there arises the question….how do we get rid of these impressions? How do we stop them from forming?
There are many ways, as was listed out in one of the chapters, but one of the ways really caught my imagination and made a lasting impact. The power of penance. Or Repentance.
Quoting…
“The unwinding of sanskaras can be brought about through penance. This consists in augmenting and expressing the feeling of remorse an individual feels after realising that he has done some wrongful act. Repentance consists in mentally reviving the wrongs with severe self-condemnation…Such penance unwinds the sanskaras that are responsible for the action.”
This has been a truly magnificient revelation for me. When you have done something wrong, and utterly utterly despicable, recollecting it and reliving it with remorse is the hardest thing possible. Every part of you wants to shy away from this act and you prefer to forget, you want to escape and avoid the unpleasant pricks of conscience. But to make such penance a willful and self conscious exercise takes a lot of stamina from a person. Moral stamina. And in that act, you have liberated yourself from the clutches of that mistake.
And as with all things, there is a certain way of doing it. Once again, quoting…
“Penance should not be like the everyday repentance, that follows everyday weaknesses. It should not become a tedious and sterile habit of immoderate and gloomy pondering over one’s own failings. Sincere penance does not consist in perpetuating grief for the wrongs, but in resolving to avoid in the future, all those deeds that call forth remorse. If it leads to a lack of self respect or self confidence, it has not served its true purpose.”
Obviously, this is a gem that I will retain all my life!